SUNDAY
What a week! And it wasn’t just me…. Several people I’ve talked with agree that something was definitely going on in the cosmos….
….it all started exactly one week ago…. As the webmeister of ‘FiveSistersLaughing.com’, I have discovered that I am actually quite anal, which is not a word I EVER would have used to describe myself in the past.. it’s quite amusing when, after 50 years you discover new aspects of your personality! I suppose it was always there, just never uncovered until now… when I had a project that I cared enough about to be anal over! Raising kids is a little different… I wouldn’t say that I was anal over my kids…(though they might say that!)… I think it’s just being a little over-protective… I’m trying really hard to let go, now that they’re 16 and 15…but it’s not that easy!
So anyway, last Sunday I was going over every page with a fine tooth comb, making slight changes here and there, and then realizing I had to change the layout of the pages to allow for links to other pages, so you’re not having to scroll all the way down a page to find something….(and this web design stuff is all new to me, by the way)… So very meticulously copied and pasted all the pages to my Word files until I had created the new pages….. after about 12 hours of continuous attention to this project, I was brain dead… and one by one deleted all the old pages, as they were no longer active on our site……It become evident very soon after, that I had deleted all my ‘365 Days To a New Me’ posts and there was no way I could get them back!
I had a sick feeling in the pit of my stomach and I felt like I had lost a part of me! I was sure that the web hosting company would be able to retrieve them, so decided not to lose sleep over it….until the next morning the email back to me said ‘sorry, no can do’!!
And then the rain started… and it rained and rained and rained! We actually had a tornado and wind gust up to 90 miles an hour… here in southern California… that’s almost unheard of! We lost power, my computer went down and didn’t start up again for over 2 days…. I discovered something else about myself during this wacky week…. I’m addicted to the internet!
I had felt uninspired and actually a little depressed all week over the loss of my posts, so didn’t feel like blogging at all, but when my laptop died and I wasn’t sure if I was going to have to buy a new one (which I don’t’ have the money for), and I couldn’t just log on whenever I wanted, I started wondering what to do with myself in the meantime! How pathetic! I did finish the Julie and Julia book… to be honest, the movie is much better…..the book is mostly about present day Julie… which wasn’t near as interesting as all the information about Julia Child and her beginnings as a cook and author of Mastering the Art of French Cooking…. And of course there’s no one quite like Meryl Streep!
So after a week, the rain stopped and my computer came back up! With no explanation of why it was down or what happened… I think it was an eye opener for me…it gave me a chance to pause and ponder…. but now that I’m online again….. it’s business as usual… the sun is shining and all feels right with the world…..I do feel like I lost something in the process though…and I started questioning everything about myself, this project and the website… what were we doing, who really cared…and why any of it matters…was the cosmos trying to tell me something?? but then I realized when you finally find something you enjoy doing, and you can’t wait to do it again…. It does matter… to you… and you should keep doing it as long as you are enjoying it… no matter what anyone says or thinks….it’s a piece of you, and THAT DEFINITELY MATTERS!
So… I’m back… after a brief rain-delay! Off to discover another new thing about myself!
Ciao!
Casey
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